I keep wanting to start with hmmmm

Chaos star my own meaning?

Hmmmm let me think...or don't, what would you do if i said that we do not exist? That we are all in my head? well i would say thats probably right i have no proof that I'm not in my head or that I'm not in your head which i am because I'm writing this blog to myself. WOW what the hell was that? way to deep for me i need to lighten up maybe thats one of my problems, yes i think so but we need to be serious for the world to continue moving on! Well I'm stumped what do you think? Is this the meaning of chaos?